Adulting an all #9
Back to feeling stuck and overwhelmed. Feeling grateful about things at the same time too!
Whatta crossover! Feeling stuck and grateful at the same time… call me crazy but I have been feeling these mixed emotions lately. I am feeling stuck because I have neither been able to publish any content anywhere nor build any projects for my technical learning. I always have this urge to try multiple things which kinda makes me feel like I am not doing enough (Is it just me or is this part of adulting? I guess I’ll know later only).
Publishing content stopped due to my stupid barrier of it not being good enough. Seeing and consuming content on all the platforms gives this major downside where we end up comparing to others - “Oh my video isn’t good enough, the editing can be super cool, oh the content needs to be crisper, etc.” The only solution to this problem is to upload and hit on publish (yes I am telling myself this more often).
I have this weird opinion that sometimes being in your world helps (not delusional level, but to a certain extent). At least you won’t be judgemental of your style which is just you being you, and in content creation, it is damn essential!
Talking about projects, I have been trying to learn web development recently especially JS, and I am not building enough projects for me to gain a better understanding of the concepts. I am very positive, that I’ll by the time I write my next newsletter. Just need to stop wasting time somehow.
If I keep this generalist side of me aside and look at my current things going on - I feel super grateful because this is kind of something I hoped for when I was in school (definitely a lot more to come). Like the freedom to live on your own, not ask parents for money, travel and meet people, experience new things, invest in healthcare, and more.
What triggered this inside of me? It’s kinda stupid but I was watching the MH370 documentary - the plane that disappeared in the year 2014. Like just imagine one day in a moment you could lose your life, or suffer the loss of someone special or family, just aches my heart even the thought of something like this.
Basically, this thought made me realize how bitchy I was to not appreciate the situation around me. Am I being too emotional? I don’t know but I definitely felt like I needed to share this with you all.
Some nice things that happened…
I am SO glad that I finally got my reading habit back. I finished “Attached”, and “No Rules Rules”, and am almost done with “Wise and Otherwise”. I was trying so hard in 2022 to read more books but 2023 has been nice so far reading perspective-wise.
Books :D Tried glamping for the first time. Honestly, even I was not very sure how far I was going to enjoy it - but it was TOO GOOD. First off we went for a very small trek which led to the view of a beautiful sunset, clicked a lot of pictures, made some videos, and returned back before it became dark. Next, there was a live music show by a band and some BBQ to enjoy along with it. After the dinner, they started movie screening in the outdoors which was awesome too. The tents were nice and I just felt that maybe winters would have been too good for such a thing, well summer wasn’t too bad either.
Glamping - yay! Visited North East India for the very first time. I got a chance to visit Assam through a work trip - honestly, I didn’t see it coming. So when I heard the news, I was pretty excited and nervous at the same time about this. Excited because it is such a beautiful place and nervous because I hadn’t traveled with my colleagues like this. To cut a long story short, the trip was a success in many ways - we got to explore the places we were staying in, visited the oil rigg, tried some local food, shopped for souvenirs, got some good tea, and most importantly went on the Kaziranga safari.
Assam was nice :)
A Wisdomous POV
There is a 99% chance that you will feel like you have outgrown certain mindsets almost every once in a while. (could be from your own friend groups, colleagues, etc.)
Some habits might just make sense to you and no one else around you. For me, it is definitely having good 7-8 hours of sleep (emphasizing the good is mandatory).
Always remind yourself to be shamelessly kind and giving.
Oh, by the way, I also started my YouTube channel recently to feed my creative side! Just a space for me to try out different types of content— Check it out here! I am also thinking of maybe starting a new series for the new year for the newsletter as well, let’s see I’ll keep you guys posted.
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