Adulting and all #12
This post got written sooner due to a special request! Also recently my anxiety made a comeback :)
Hi all, what’s happening? I am hoping that the subscribers remember me and what I write lol. Too much to ask for no? especially when the newsletter issues don’t come out consistently?
Anyways recently life’s been pretty good, lots of happy personal moments happening but won’t be able to detail out here (only close ones know). But recently my anxiety made a comeback in a very weird way, to be honest. (part of adulting, I guess?)
Yes, it feels super weird yet nice to accept it in this issue. I have had a few breakdowns long ago before where I didn’t know it was anxiety (PS: not referring to nervousness here). This crumbling emotion that doesn’t allow you to function and the thoughts just keep going in circles is anxiety. You get it during big moments or even the small mundane daily tasks. No one can quantify that “Hey I suffer more than you” or just solve by saying “Don’t worry”. I honestly hate these generic statements from anyone.
What is anxiety?
So how did it come back you ask? It literally crept up until I was being rude and irritable to my close ones. Then suddenly I started having this constant uneasiness in my heart and a shit load of overthinking. I don’t even know why I am sharing this here, probably just to bring awareness that you can be a little more empathetic to people who have anxiety. It doesn’t go away with “not worrying” or “not thinking”, in fact I really wish sometimes it did.
Anxiety is a good and bad thing you know. It works in my favor most of the times as I do intensive planning to solve the looping thoughts, write stuff down, always care a lot about getting things done… but the bad part is if some small part of it doesn’t happen due to any reason, oh god it just sucks so bad! Like you have no idea, you end up feeling like you are the only person who cares way too much about a small thing and then ends up getting hurt.
This is getting way to deep and sounding like a therapy session , lol. But on a serious note do lend a ear and be nice to people who are this way. Trust me we didn’t chose this stupid thing :)
How is anyone supposed to cope with this?
Different things might work for different people. My close friend told me to start journalling, if a diary is not feasible try writing on Google Docs. But then I explained how pen and paper do the magic that typing doesn’t.
So to cope, accepting that you are showing irritability, or getting hurt way too often is 50% work done. Recently, I have been moving around like walking or doing small home workouts to boost my brain cells, which is helping a lot. Then to support it is reading books and consuming the right content. I am unable to resist the Instagram reels, like it is just the worst habit I have caught. Hopefully will go through detox to overcome this addiction.
I feel like I am getting wiser and wiser, oh yes 25 is hitting soon! Weird way to say my birthday is coming right? Feel free to send gifts and money, just kidding.
You know what let’s skip to the good part now!
Ah god need to stop whining now!
Felt pretty after a very long time now. YES LOOKING PRETTY AND FEELING IS NOT THE SAMEEEE!
Goofy pictures all the way! I have been cooking a lot recently and I love the fact that I am eating healthier !
Pretty skies heal everything :)
Reading the following much pending book in my reading list - Yeah one of my closest girlfriend is going away to study MBA, so here I am reading this :’) And yes unrelated but this woman only wanted my newsletter issue before leaving.
Also I have so many pictures pending to be posted, seriously have some extra filmy and aesthetic ones. Send blessings to post them soon!
Conclusion of this newsletter
Remember readers, if you get anxious, don’t… if you care too much, just don’t… okay don’t cancel me for this line. Genuinely if anyone wants to talk reply to this mail or reach out to me on my socials, I’ll try my best to hear you out <3
Take care of your physical and mental health on priority please, no compromise should be made there :)) If anything this should be the conclusion you should be taking away from this newsletter #12.
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