Adulting and all #6

Exhausted. Emotionally. Mentally. Physically

Helluu to my lovely readers! How have you been?

I feel so fatigued with the amount of drama around me sometimes that I want to give up. What happened? It’s just that I learnt I care about people way more than required (usual sweet and people pleasing gestures) and that people don’t respect boundaries.

Why do they not respect? Because I failed to make them boundaries! Many of the Twitteratis read books and discuss them over multiple spaces for a long time. Considering how eventful my life had become—Universe slaps me with multiple chapters within few days. And I definitely fall behind to keep up with that sort of pace.

I know, I definitely sound like those writers who write about their emotions deeply, but I am just trying to put all the rants out here. I also know that it’s hard to do that since in this age we are trying to socialize (putting a facade usually sometimes)— make more friends, putting yourself out there, networking, but hey don’t forget that a lil alone time is necessary to retrospect on what happened. Yes, a wannabe influencer like me wants to yell “PLEASE PRIORITISE YOURSELF and don’t give a fuck about what others think”.

Yeah, last year when I actually started having presence over social media, I definitely tweeted a lot about self care and self love. But I failed to apply because I never had to. Being at home (comfort) around people with whom I have been at peace and been comfortable (pro max)… living outside slapped hard. Of course the responsibility of working and managing finances is another thing but managing the whole you is something different altogether.

July updates much?

July was pretty much chill with loads of emotional up downs about a person I genuinely cared for. It so started happening that I started losing interest with all the turmoil going inside me, which didn’t feel worth the effort.

Overall pretty good scenes with a short trip to Lonavala and back in hometown :)) I started being more aesthetic regarding the stories I post on Instagram (yeah just wanted to experiment, turned out to be pretty noice!)

So greeeeeeeeeeen

Oh oh July also taught me to catch up with them old friends, because new ones might not stay but these old dumbasses definitely stick so ya 🙂

Here’s a rose for you :)

August too??

August hit me really hard… 23 happened before I turned 23 and it got worse even after turning!

My readers trying to keep up with the updates like—

Eating healthy meals, having a workout, or even meditation for that matter is something I have been failing to keep up with after moving out. Since my lifestyle changed, PCOS said “Hey”. All this while I have just been hearing about it, now that it struck me I was clueless as fuck! (Don’t worry I am way better)

I literally had to talk to people who had been through this(like still maintaining health well), visiting gynecologist, doing the most absurd of google searches, going for blood tests, hearing random rumors, having anxiety of side effects of tablets, explaining people, and more. I just described what I went through to be honest. It wasn’t all bad as I made it sound over there though— I have been more aware, responsible, cautious, and more curious about keeping myself healthy than what I am already. A great learning experience for person nearing mid 20s to be honest(especially for women as we go through even more changes during this period — seriously when does it end for us?)

Mentally speaking, I had a few people vacuum cleaned out of my life( lol is that even a phrase?). I mean the ones that drained out my energy for no reason and had to cut them off some or the other day (it just happened sooner). Both of this cleansing energy and awareness hit together making me feel low for like a month. I got like frustrated about feeling stuck, unproductive, and distancing out from people in general (I know I should have just taken care of me rather than being so hard on myself)

It was a mess and I just couldn’t embrace it. (Remember the quote “messy is beautiful”? NO IT’S NOT)

Can we skip to the good part?

Celebrated a very vibrant Independence day in the office :)

I also had like a short trip to Bangalore to surprise few of my friends and I also met a friend from Twitter (quite interesting no?)

Time to make a vlog about this one, is it?

Ended the month of August with the festival very close to my <3

Few random learnings!

• Don’t let people repeat mistakes with you. Strike one: Forgive, Strike two: bye bye (This might change later and is very subjective)

• Make good boundaries around you. Some people definitely don’t deserve the preciousness you hold. (No for reals!!)

• Take great care of your health before you go through weekends all hungover. Stay hydrated and eat your greens (ugh, I definitely sound like an Instagram post)

• No you don’t need to explain yourself. Sometimes its just pointless and time consuming.

• Don’t keep high hopes about turning 23 (again subjective)

• Health insurance is necessary. Invest well in your health please.

• Journaling helps calm your mind. You needn’t do it daily, but maybe letting the big events put would do the work too.

• Gift your loved ones something, the reaction is priceless.

Yeah damn, I don’t want to sound like some wisdomous person there. Ending this onw right here and see you for the next one.

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